Thursday, October 29, 2009


More to come after this weekend's photoshoot. . . if the rain doesn't screw everything up. It's been raining alot here lately but I love it. I love falling asleep with my window open and the rain falling. . . everyone else is ready for this rain to go away but I want it to keep on coming, except for this Saturday :) Haha, my dad is yelling "MATSUI"! Definitely watching the World Series. Anyways, here are a couple more pictures and then I'm off to finish the rest of the Real Housewives of Atlanta Reunion! EEEEEeeeek! :) Xx

Friday, October 23, 2009


So I've decided, in this hard time of mine, that this blog can also be an outlet to my emotions right now. This long distance thing is extremely hard but I think when I need to just vent, this would be a good place to do it. It's easy when I'm not really in the mood to sit with someone and talk. I get to chat with the boyfriend everyday but it's the physical part that gets to me. Not having him sitting next to me on the couch or in the car or cuddling in bed gets to me. I cry myself to sleep sometimes because I miss him so much it hurts. But I know this is just a test of our love and we will prevail. I'll be here waiting when he comes back for good because I've never known a love like this and he makes me the best person I can be. It's at times frustrating because I've been so used to having him with me all the time and never leaving one another's side. And at times I take the frustration out on him and I know it's not right but he is a patient soul and he tries to make things better for me and I love him for that. It means he truly cares for me. I think this was the best time for him to go though because its coming up on the holidays. Halloween, Thanksgiving, his birthday, my birthday, Christmas and New Years, there's alot to look forward to so hopefully this season will zoom by! But maybe not zoom by too fast when he comes to visit for Christmas. I have to learn to enjoy every moment I spend with him and with others, because you never know when something can happen that will tear your world apart and hand it back to you and then spit in your face. At the time the boyfriend left, I was losing him for 2 years and then I lost my job and then I got a horrific rash all over my face. So when I say that I got my world torn up and handed back to me and then got spit in the eye, I really mean it. Haha.

Everything is better now though. I'm learning to deal with the boyfriend being in another country for 2 years and I have my days but he is amazing at handling it.

Anyways, I still put some pictures up on this post because it makes me happy to do so. :)


Sunday, October 18, 2009

Friday Night - Outfit photoshoot night

So, I wasn't feeling too well Friday night and I stayed in. But once I was in, I looked around my room and saw this mass of clothes on my floor. . . they either needed to be hung up or PLAYED WITH! So, I played dress up and took some photos of outfits I put together. I have this dream that I can be a stylist/fashion designer/fashion editor all in one. Might be a lil more than I could ever chew but you gotta start somewhere. This night I was playing stylist to a fashion editor who just came out with her own collection. :) I'm gonna dream as if I'll live forever......


Sunday, October 11, 2009

Almost forgot

My first sketch via iPhone app: Sketchbook! Really cool. I woke up from a dream that I was on Project Runway and I designed this. So I woke up thinking about it but had no paper or pen in sight so I looked on the iPhone apps and found this Sketchbook app! And TA DA! My first sketch on a phone, haha. Enjoy!

Hello Fall

So happy the weather is cold out! I love it. Had to step out and go to Wal-Mart for some groceries and wore the faux-leather jackets and motorcycle boots. Then while I was there I found this peacock tunic. . . by Miley Cyrus/Max Azaria! Kinda embarassed but kinda not, the tunic is adorable and has a cute cut-out in the back plus it was only $10. Then I also found some leggings with shredding on the sides which is in season so I got those too! $10 also. I am not saying I am a Miley Cyrus fan because I'm not, but when it comes to style, she does ok. Anyways, then I did my har, its getting long, and this is how it turned out! Enjoy!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Getting to know you, getting to know all about you.

What is your current obsession? Skinny jeans and platforms.

What is your weirdest obsession? My netbook.

What are you wearing today? Today I wore a black casual dress and my pashmina the boyfriend got from England and gave to me before he left and now I'm wearing his England jacket, a gray tanktop and boyshorts.

Why is today special? Because it was a great day!

What would you like to learn to do? Speak French!

What’s for dinner today? Pizza at the rent's.

What’s the last thing you bought? Lunch at Whataburger.

What are you listening to right now? Lifetime channel, waiting for Project Runway!

What is your favorite weather? Right now, between summer and fall. Thunderstorms, rain, cool weather!

What is on your bedside table? A Hello Kitty lamp, books, pictures of me and Jomarys and a picture of me and the boyfriend and Beanie Babies from McDonald's.

What is your most challenging goal right now? Balancing school and work and of course being without the boyfriend til December. . . .

If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be? Paris, France or someplace close. For sure.

Favorite vacation spot? Anywhere with a beach and good scenery.

What would you like to have in your hands right now? The boyfriend.

What would you like to get rid of? My debt.

If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go? England to see the boyfriend!

Which language do you want to learn? FRENCH! Probably should learn more of my native tongue as well.

Who do you want to meet in person? Gwen Stefani!

One thing that you would snatch out of someone’s closet, with no regrets? Anything from Mary Kate or Ashley's closet! They wouldn't miss anything.

What’s the favorite piece of clothing in your own closet? My leather skirt from Buffalo Exchange that I have yet to wear because I'm a chicken.

What is your dream job? A fashion designer/fashion editor.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Thursday I don't care about you, it's Freja I'm in love.

So recently, I was surfing fashion blogs and came upon a picture of a mesmerizing young model with the coolest hair. I saved the picture as a guide to what I wanted my hair to look like next time I get a haircut. Anyways, her face just captivated me and I kept that picture for a while. Then, just today I was surfing fashion blogs again and came upon a blog with a post about the same young model with the unique look. And the title was "Freja"! I immediately googled Freja and came upon pictures and pictures of her on the runway and on the street with her 12 tattoos and rockstar style.
I don't understand why guys fall for the blonde, blue eyes, curvaeous women when there's far more interesting women out there who look like Freja. I'm not saying she isn't beautiful because she is perfection but I just wonder why guys like the girls who look like the other girsl sitting in the corner of the bar with their blonde hair and big tits and not the effortlessly cool and chic. . . well my boyfriend doesn't like boring :) which is why he chose me, but that's another story. Needless to say, I fell in love with Freja. So I scored some of my favorite pictures of her and posted them below. She is def a hit this season as it is the beginning of the Fashion year. Anyways, check out her 12 tattoos (google Freja tattoos) and check out my pictures below. Stunning.

This is the picture I fell in love with at the beginning of this year. The hair is perfection.

If only yesterday was tomorrow

It all happened so soon. And it will be again so soon. You live your whole life based on what you want and need but do you ever stop to think is there something more? Some of us do and some of us don't. And when you think you are on the right path, it turns out to be the wrong one in the end. If only yesterday was tomorrow. If only you were here with me now like you were yesterday when we held each other. If only all of this was done and our time was starting right now. But it's only the beginning. A day by day struggle to be without something you had once everyday. Like an addiction but a good kind. And like a junkie going through withdrawals, I just have to sweat this one out for a while. If only yesterday was tomorrow. If only yesterday was the start of our lives together forever. So it would be today. It may be the hardest thing you ever have to do but if it is something you truly want then you shall have it. There is something more. It just takes time. You have to be patient. A lesson that is hard to learn when all you want to do is be happy. But happy we can be. These are alot of words and thoughts put down in a short time and they may seem jumbled but they will make sense to those who know that life goes on and in the end the nice guy may finish last but isn't it the point to just finish?

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Meet Mark!

Hello friends, I have an exciting annoucement to make! I am now a mark.rep. I have a website up and some great offers like $24.99 mark.Sophistique, a blend of amber and orange blossom and some basic pieces for your wardrobe from Britt Bardo, celebrity stylist. So stop by and take a look and start shopping for those Christmas gifts. Never too early to start. :) And if you have any questions or want to try some samples, feel free to let me know! Thanks!